My main love language is words of affirmation. I show that I love you by letting you speak, and responding positively to you. In that same way, it is how I feel loved. Lately I’ve been pondering this as I’ve come to realize that I have been so spoiled because, this is the first time ever that I don’t have a physical support group around me (in my home or next door) that I can talk to about my day or share my random thoughts as I remember them or as they happen. It’s true that I have friends and family that are just a phone call away, but it’s not quite the same. It’s not necessarily a bad thing either, just an adjustment. I’ve come to realize that I get a lot of my self-esteem off of others reaction to me. When I don’t receive a reaction, I start to question. My family often asks me where I got my confidence, well it’s from them and the knowledge that they knew me and loved me, quarks and all, despite my weaknesses! So with this knowledge as my foundation, now is my chance to prove to myself that I’m amazing just the way I am, and I’m not losing that just because I’m unable to express it every hour of every day the way I’m used to. They say actions speak louder than words, and I’m getting a chance to practice more on the action part, without the audience. I’m gonna be me for me, because I think me is pretty awesome. So you can call me vain if you want, but be warned: I don’t think you really believe it, I just think you’re jealous :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjhCEhWiKXk
